Why I am Not a Zionist!!

Since the start of my college career in 2000, till up until a few years ago. I was one of the most ardent Zionists you would find on my colleges campus. I have read dozens of books on the subject, gone to countless speeches, I even received my degree in Political Science so I would be able to take courses that allowed me to discuss the Israeli conflict (also because I enjoyed it!).
While going to college, I also took the time out to delve into my religiosity. I was not raised religious, and am what is known in the Jewish world as a "Baal Teshuvah". After college I took 2 years out of my life to study at Yeshiva to better understand the Torah and Judaism. I noticed in that time, that I stopped paying attention to the conflict and realized that being a good Zionist did not necessarily translate into being a good Jew!
Having spoken to countless Israeli's, and secular Jewish Zionists. I noticed that while they say that they are fighting for the Jewish people, they would much rather Spit on the Torah than actually follow what it says. And then if I say anything remotely resembling something non-Zionistic about Israel, I get some secular schmuck, who has probably never even herd of the Sabbath, calling me a self hating Jew!!
Don't get me wrong!! I don't support the Palestinians and their actions. But, after seeing the Secular government, politics and people of Israel and their constant hatred for the religious Jews, and a flagrant willingness to piss on the Torah, I can not in good conscience support Israel anymore.
If these feeling makes me a bad Jew in your eyes than obviously you don't know me very well!